Gone and done it again....

I've done it.  Signed up as a virtual team captain for the Ride to Conquer Cancer.

In 2015 I did the ride.  We were lucky enough to have CTV do a special on team Strong Spirit.  Check out our video here!

In 2017 I signed up but in May they found the cancer had grown back leaving me unable to ride last summer but I cheered like crazy from the sidelines!

I'm excited to participate as the virtual team Captain this year. We have two other team members as of now. My goal is to get as many riders involved and donors as possible!  This is something I can do from my lawn chair!

Anyone interested in riding can sign up here.  Or please consider donating to team Strong Spirit here. Consider donating to other team members as they require the funds to actually ride.

Thank you for supporting team Strong Spirit!!!

Slow your life down

What do you do when you can't sleep at 6 am and the whole house is sleeping?!   You blog.

It's amazing when you become "stuck" close to home.   You find things to do.   My garden has never been healthier,  daily trending & watering,  a new found obsession which beautifies and brings  joy to my life in a whole different way.

I've had amazing people come to me for visits while I lounge in the sunshine.   Friends for stop in's,  playdates, chair yoga with older neighbor (good for both of us) and just getting to know neighbors that unfortunately in the past I have not slowed down enough to get to know.  There is an amazing gift in strengthening a local bond that wasn't there before.   Favours offered and recieved as well as amazing things you learn and are inspired by that are right under your nose!

People are amazing.  Slow your life down and get to know those around you,  it's pretty eye opening and amazing!

Mother's day

It was a special blessed Mother's day.
I was treated to an amazing kiddo making me breakfast to taste (not really eat because I chew and use what we call my spitoon) of a hashbrown and watermelon outside in the garden,  followed by getting out to church then a adventure to some trails in the delicious smelling cedar trees woods.   My amazing hubby showed his love by pushing a regular wheelchair on very rugged terrain up and down hill.   He sure had his workout today!  Spent time with my mom on that walk too.
I also got to call my beautiful mother-in-law and had a nice visit with her over Skype.  
Not to forget to mention the special Mother's Day greetings I recieved from so many special thoughtful people in my life.
I thank God for such a beautiful day of feeling fairly normal.  
Lots of love to you momma's  and female role models out there.  Lots of love!

What now?

Just being is how I have survived theses days.   Mostly watch the world go by.   It's harder to just be, I'm naturally a doer. I find joy in doing for others and now it is a real challenge and drain just doing for myself.    I can get comfy settled on my couch and become afraid to to things because I will use up too much energy and not have any left for the rest of the day.   I've played around with activity levels and if I play hard I fall into a deep sleep for like 3 hours afterwards.   Most days I'm able to play to some degree  of rest and activity balance that works really well.   The other day was more of a struggle than most days.   Most days I'm able to use the joy and happiness life has to offer. Managing to get outside and enjoy seeing plants grow and watch the world go by and interact with friends or family are all still very present in my life.  
The other day my daughter,  parents and I managed to get to the library followed by a stop at the park,  reading lying in the grass and making Daisie chains.   A glorious afternoon!   The following day I woke up feeling lost and unsure of what I'm able to do.  But by the end of the afternoon my daughter and I were  creating a fancy fairy garden and having a blast doing it!

With medication changes, loving support of family and friends & prayer I am slowly finding my way back to being functional again.   I have been able to see God at work in my life and been able to lean on him,  trust him and realize my purpose is to praise him, trust him and pray and think of those around me.  That my energy can do!