It's been a rough couple of weeks and there will be a lot of challenge, exhaustion and pain in my future. But do you know what there is even more of? LOVE! There is love in every hand squeeze, every smile, every little text message, every visit, every drawing, all the bright flowers, every meal delivered to my family, all the emails, every playdate for my daughter, every mundane task I'm helped with, every Skype visit from those far away, every medication given and in all information, teaching and experience shared. Love is all around!
The cancer through out my entire abdomen is back. So much so that the surgeon couldn't determine between bowel, pelvic wall and tumour in my lower abdomen. If and how far it spreads through the rest of my body is not known yet. I am currently recovering from 9 days with no nutrition followed by surgery which has left me with in incision from lower sternum all the way down to lower abdomen, a g-tube and an iliostomy (or poop-bag, as my daughter calls it).
Every act of love adds a little bubblewrap bubble of love surrounding me. I am in a love bubble and it is helping cushion me from the hard blows that life is throwing at me.